Double Entendre ;)

Its 10.05 pm .... well am too bored to study the same stuff yet over again .. perhaps it was too much to deal with ... a day that started with juggling around the molecules, later discussing strategies and still later into popl-ling (well for those who have no reference to this i am a TA for this course so u c .. i hav to) ...

I was unable to sleep without being able to turn to my sides due to some weird muscular pain throughout my body. After she knew of the lil fever, slight shiver and a vomit too.... the doctor after going through the check up warned me of chicken guniea (i dont bother to spell it right) .....

'Ah and its paining again' .... this was one of my friends while running ... not me :)

'wow ! i never saw any one affected by this but every other damn disease ... :D'
oh that was panda ... with his bloody and crappy exclamations!!! .. i mean who else shouts a wow on listening tat ... well with enough of postulations from my mates i finally decided to chill out n relax ...

finally my muscles got some relief and allowed me to have a free run and injected some fresh adrenaline into me. Following this, was the freshers round 1 ... perhaps recently our Institute is gone just too rich to afford them. Having my dinner, here i cum back to my room

sitting in my chair i think over again and again of some place to go ... to have italian .. i mean times and again planned but just could not make it to....

and am thinking about nothing ... not bothered bout my head .. nor my ass ...

Over the flames .... might be due to the busy schedules and no time to ponder ... all was shitty ... and it happened again .... and again .... nothing going smooth ....

practically nothing .... but for some reason i am happy ..

as i blocked this part of the story right here, right away !

and hence i can feel that happy n gay spirit within me today (double entendre unintended :P).
i am writing this without thinking, without manipulating the free flow of thoughts that are pouring out onto this page as alphabets and making an attempt to speak the words that put forth my inner state. Perhaps they are not just thoughts but something more.. somethings that just happen without a reason... things that are not known to happen ... things that don't exist but you can feel them, you can't reach or touch but can sense them .... weird, strange, true and mostly: naaaiiceee... very naaaiiceee :)

Julia Robert's enjoying her spaghetti .. mmhhhhh ..well its just that I started over to watch Eat, Pray and Love ...

There comes the first drop of my eyes .. no no this is no senti senti ... this is no overloaded with the joy of experiencing such moment after a long time, this is no being hurt by some other bustard, this is no troubled by pain of that fucking chicken guneia either ... thats just my contacts dear :P gimme a min...

all nude... just bathed in water..... still afresh all over... moistly skinned.... lusty red...
I touch it ..... i can feel that softness ... as i touch more... i can feel even the hard... towards the other side ...towards the end ... now i take it in my hands... i can still feel the warmth ... the softness... and damn these lenses are just too itchy towards the edges... hurting my lusty red eyes... marking the disposal time... so well i put them into the solution and dress my eyes.... and finally put my glasses on .....

yea so where were we before the dressing and undressing done ?? taking bout the 'drop' that started its flight from my eye

'...GOIBIBO ... search the coupon code online dude' ... ahh no that was ramu pinging me...

yea so that drop from the eye ... it came as a result of the feeling of discomfort from the eye ... yet the mind was having a feeling of comfort. So how is it that medical science has organised my body? in bits n pieces? has it completely forgot that i m one and that should react unanimously and insync to all the other parts ?? it rolled down my cheek .. not any other part of mine .... why so ? i wanted to know the mystery...

'or else it does not allow you to free yourself from the thought that brings you pain...' and so here i unblock that portion


within me; as it was the only body part that was troubled... not the rest .... The drop was a result of pain ... in my eye ... it did not affect anyone else ... as the rest were not bothered enough !! and why will the rest even bother? They were all happy and gay :P feeling naaiiicee... and enjoying the comfort ..... that the feeling had just brought in inside them...

perhaps it was this ability that i developed today to isolate myself from the rest and then feel the world that consists of only you and a world that belongs to only you. It is the only being you are responsible towards and you are the only one who accounts for it. It has got your memories as the few elements of this world, your emotions that fill in the oceans, your learnings that form the lands and your experiences that form the atmosphere that surrounds and guards you.

At times it is all about breaking the threshold, about stepping out, about exploring new worlds, and crossing over !

'Attraversiamo !'

Zero Gravity

The apple asked gravity if it would help the apple pass through the turbulence that had caused randomness in its mind and made each thought foggy. To which the gravity was too cold to respond. The apple once again tried to convince gravity by aid of different quintessences that gravity could relate to, none of which caused gravity to be adamant without changing its mind. "Just be with me" was followed by a negation so soft but had an unparalleled intensity. After regularly pleading however, the gravity agreed half heartedly to help the apple get rid of all the itch in it and assured to help the foggy view become crystal clear; or so to say the apple presumed so!

A good time! Yes that was. With a word always to say, with an act always to do, with a smile to show 'I m dere', things were good. Perhaps no better may it could have been. anytime; and it didn't. Pampered with words of trust, caressed with assurances, put in hopes of a lasting fellowship. The readability of the countenances further added to it. All grew into a dependency that vouched of a fall back option, an option that at one end meant to fall back assured, so as to be taken care of at the other end; and to the other it meant to allow a free fall. Gravity after all!

Gravity constantly kept an eye on the apple or the apple did it to gravity. Either of the ways it happened lead nothing good. On the contrary, as it is said too much familiarity leads to ignorance, apple soon assumed the form of any other object that the gravity acts upon. And in no more than a few days did the apple presume a scoffed part of gravity's world.

After questioning a week long, the New Year brought the reply: its internal, the ailment; deep and difficult to cure. Dialogues leaded to discussions and pleadings made it to parley. Understanding wants words, but seldom they help. The year to follow ushered in new happenings, further worsening the ailment which now no doctor could cure. An apple a day kept gravity away!

A strange spring followed...
And all the amicabilities went hollowed...
Something in the ecology went wrong,
And the spring instead regular, lead to a fall... of all apples but one!

The apple asked gravity if it ...
...........................................................
........................................................... ...or so to say the apple presumed so!
Disallowing exchange of its action for its words, gravity barred the apple, beyond its reach, making the fog still more dense for the apple to see through, let alone helping a crystal clear view. Gravity remained unspoken for the cause of its bewilderedness keeping the apple at bay, aloof of what made him deserve this: An apple left free in the air to move about in the random, not being cared for, to go astray and aimlessly as the foggy thoughts directed it to... It yelled at gravity to be just and at least be equal to them all, to allow him a free fall as the rest.

"You don't even deserve that" is what left the apple puzzled in its own and very new world of ZERO GRAVITY!

If not better,
It will certainly make things good!
A small chat will prevent me perish,
and so 'Utter' you should.

Why not speak?
Lets have a word or two...
or is it that now I m no worthy to talk to?